Sunday, November 29, 2009

Shaving Cream

With that first marshmallow puff, it all came rushing back. He came rushing back in an olfactory wave.

After all this time he was here again in my bathroom, smelling the way he did once his face was smooth to the touch. As if his freshly shaven face, a whisper away from my own, was ready to drown me in his long, lingering kiss. A kiss that made me weak at the knees and creamy wet.

In the beginning it was the scent of new love, of renewed love after a long absence, of a lust and desire so intense it might burn us up.

And in the end it did. In the end, the aroma imposed on me daily spoke only of our alienation. It told only of the way we avoided each other’s lips. No longer weak at the knees, we were both merely weak, unable to find an honest way out.

While this scent reminds me of that time and that man, it also makes me hopeful for the possibility of another loving man whose kiss will leave me breathlessly strong.

Friday, November 27, 2009


Today only your winning words will do:

… but my soul it wants out
its got big dreams and wants to go south
with the bats the byrds and the bees and some of me …

… so go I’m driving fast
down the street I’ve cut my knees
they’re bleeding all the words that I could not say …

Bertie Blackman, ‘Shout out’, Secrets and Lies

Wednesday, November 25, 2009


Grasping her ankles, he pulls her toward him at the foot of the bed. He opens her wide, positioning each leg on the periphery and runs his hands insistently along their length.

Arms wound tightly round her hips and bottom, he plunges himself into her wetness in one deliciously selfish stroke.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Music Man

As he growls then whispers the lyrics, she marvels how he could so accurately read the life of a woman a world away from his own.

Smiling through her tears she doubts if any other man will ever be able to do the same from up close.

Saturday, November 21, 2009


I am melting into a little puddle. Even as I sit here very still and naked, I’m hot. And bothered.

This late spring heat is a shock to the system. No gradual warm-up just a wallop so intense it drains your energy in an instant. It’s the kind of heat that skews my brain and makes me achingly aware of my body.

I suppose this is the upside. The awareness of my body, its boundaries and limits, its cravings and needs.

Right now it is responding to the simplest of pleasures. The cool air on my sweat beaded thighs, tummy and breasts as I sit spread eagle in front of the fan, the ice cubes melting gorgeously on my tongue, the dripping dew from a cold bottle traced along my neck.

And yet what I really crave at this very moment is more heat. A searing, pulsating hardness to quench the fever coming from within.

Friday, November 20, 2009


It came as something of a surprise after his tender, sensual kiss, his tongue tracing the outline of my mouth before languidly devouring me. I stood swaying, eyes shut, body tingling, begging for more, as he broke away and momentarily left the room.

Finally opening my eyes I saw him standing before me, blade in hand, a wry smile playing on his lips. Breath quickening, nipples erect, a new surge flooded my already blushing cunt.

Stepping forward he raised a finger to his lips silencing my unspoken words. Running the handle carefully down my cheek, neck and collarbone, he pulled me in to kiss him once more.

Poised at the top of my dress, the light reflected off the cutting edge. Closing my eyes, I surrendered to the darkness and the exquisite sounds of destruction.

Stitch by stitch, tear by tear, a destruction that would leave me bare and ready to bend to his will.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

"Where did a nice girl like you...?"

I know that you can’t quite believe everything that’s said in the heat of the moment, but when he growled out the rhetorical question I couldn’t help myself, I had to smile. I looked up at him spread out before me, my mouth filled with his delicious tumescence while my hands travelled the length of his arching body, and contemplated if he knew just how much I enjoyed giving this kind of pleasure.

I’m unsure if I’m all that exceptional in this area but, every now and then, it’s nice to hear my talents being appreciated.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

More words about words

They weave a very particular spell, those words of his. Quite unlike any others, they wind themselves into and through my body. Sliding, slithering, caressing, tickling. Ablaze, my body becomes pure sensation. Hungry, yearning, open. Ready. Willing.

With each passing word, each passing day, I find myself wanting. Wanting more. Wanting to be her. Wanting to be the woman who inspires his force, his passion, his reflections.

I know I am not alone. I know there are countless others communing with the page, consuming in the light, devouring in the dark, desirous of the very same.

So I sit and read and yearn and ache while feeling the words. Feeling up his words as if a body laid bare for the taking.

And when I am sated I wonder if my words will ever have that effect. On him.

I live and hope and dream.

Monday, November 16, 2009


We are bound together, the women of my tree and me, bound by blood and time and history. Bound by the sacrifices, the struggles, the pleasures, the moments of love and hate and lust and longing, which have made up our everyday lives.

I like to think of them around me, surrounding me, looking down on me, on us, looking down on the lives of the women of their blood.

So many have been lost, their names and connections long forgotten, their histories slowly erased from family tales overtaken by the narratives of their men. The only traces left behind are the women of this time and place, both a world away from their own.

While it pains me that I do not know them, will never know of them, I take comfort from having them within me.

Their lives have led me to this time, this body, this woman I am today.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Lucky Charm

Dressed in his best suit, he walks out into the living room tugging at the shirt collar.

“It’s too small.”

“It’s not,” I reassure him.

He grimaces. Even though he’s trying to remain composed I know his nervousness is overtaking him. Just as he’s about to run his fingers through his wavy hair he stops short. He fidgets and paces. I begin to worry he’ll wear a track right through the new rug.

“Are you wearing something red?”

“Huh? ... What? ... No. I don’t have anything in red... Where are you going?”

I walk calmly towards the bedroom having thought of the very thing that will do. As I rummage through drawers and begin to ready myself I hear him resume his pacing and mumbling.

Just as I turn to exit the bedroom I notice him in the doorway. My curls are now around my shoulders, lips newly rouged and silk robe open to reveal naked flesh save the tiniest of black mess knickers.

“Come here. You need something for luck.”

He looks as if he might protest but then decides to obey. Now up against me I run my hands down the front of his shirt brushing his sex very gently with my own. I sink slowly to my knees and press my nose in to breathe him in. As I unbuckle the black leather belt and unzip his trousers he weaves his hands through my hair.

“I don’t have time for this…,” he trails off unconvincingly.

I smile up at him knowing full well he won’t be getting what he expects. He reads my smile as something else all together.

I nuzzle into him again, this time inhaling the full extent of his musk. My mouth begins to water at the sight of his growing hardness but I remind myself I’m on a different mission.

As I pull down the right side of his black trunks exposing his hip he gasps in a way which makes me smile again. I trace his outline with my nose and cheek looking up at him once more. Head back, lids hooded, hips forward, ready to be taken. My fingers dance over his soft skin enjoying the tease.

And then I kiss him. One deep solitary kiss from my slightly trembling red lips. One perfect red charm which marks him with luck.

One kiss to remind him, when the day is done, I’m here ready and waiting.

Friday, November 13, 2009


Two sharp raps. Two sharp raps on the door signal his arrival.

Two distinct raps belonging to him and him alone.

The sound of his hand on my door. The sound of his desire making its entry, marking my entry.

Thursday, November 12, 2009


He has given her very specific instructions. A simple list that masks an undeniable complexity.

She knows the consequence for any deviation. Straddling the red leather chair in the manner of Christine Keeler, she wonders just how long it will take him to notice.

Hearing his key in the door she shivers in anticipation of what will soon follow.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009


The beeping phone woke me just as I had drifted off into a fitful sleep after a hard day with words that wouldn’t obey. Three messages in short succession.

I’m on my way over to edit the daylights out of you

Tonight you are my toy

No refusals

Good man.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Words about words

I read your words aloud, savouring their flavour, their texture. I roll them round my mouth feeling their rhythm and pulsation. I tickle them lightly with my tongue before greedily devouring more. I open wide to be filled with them all.

Monday, November 9, 2009


Kneeling behind her, his hardness ready and waiting, he meets her eye in the mirror. On all fours and through a curtain of flaming curls he can see and feel her frustration.

She pushes back ever so slightly but his strong hands on her hips stave her off. She has been teased, mercilessly. The wetness dripping down her legs for the past hour has left its mark on the bed. He runs his hand tenderly over the length of her back and around her fair bottom, which he kisses lightly at first and then so deeply a low moan escapes her body.

She has been teased long enough.

Saturday, November 7, 2009


He stands before me proud and hard, his cock straining the front of his trousers. In a bold move, he runs his hand along his member tracing its outline in a way he knows makes me ache.

My eyes locked on his I open my stocking covered legs. He moves a little closer wanting more, a mischievous smile momentarily flashing across his lips. I wriggle in my seat, inch up my pencil skirt and spread wide.

As he leans in I swear I can feel his hot breath even though he is standing on the other side. Lingering over my body his eyes take in my every detail as he strokes himself. Heart pounding through my chest, a light sheen of wetness now covers my throbbing sex.

Just as he’s about to step forward we hear them. Meeting ended, the surrounding cubicles are filled once again with unwanted bodies and prying eyes.

Like model employees we get back to work.

Friday, November 6, 2009


I didn’t stand a chance. I really didn’t. Once his fingers found the back of my neck I knew my resolve would disappear. Once those big, beautiful hands began their languid yet discreet caress I knew I would be his for the taking.

Just like that.

So easily done. And so damn easy.

Thursday, November 5, 2009


The hunger. The pure, unadulterated hunger shakes me out of sleep once more. Untamed animal desire. Awake again at four a.m. we look at each other. While it needs feeding, it is beginning to look a little bleary-eyed. We are both exhausted, my desire and me, but continue to circle each other in the dead of night. Our own witching hour where no one else can see.

I am nothing but a silhouette. Nothing more than form, texture, flavour, smell. My pungent scent fills the space between my legs, the bed, the entire room. Fair-skinned body on white sheets begging to be soiled. Heat prickled skin, wetness overflowing. Hands, arms, fingers, all exhausted, barely able to move, manage to find their way once again.

I ache for release, for relief, for pleasure, for pain, for pleasurable pain and painful pleasure. Hooded lids heavy from sleepless nights long to see him at the foot of the bed. Long for his large, strong hands to work their way up, across and into my body. Every which way. Any which way. All the way.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009


The pulsation of my body, the flow of my words. 

Together again they overtake me, they wake me in the dead of night, gnawing, grabbing, demanding. Begging for the page, the pen, the cursor, the screen. Begging for skin and heat and lips and hands and hardness.

Open and ready, I surrender.